Normal

I've been having a rough go of things lately, so much so that I sought out a primary doctor and medication to help with the lows and irritability I've been experiencing.

Well I've now started and stopped the medication because it has caused me quite a bit of insomnia and I definitely do not need that with a three year old and an eighteen month old!

I also started reading a book I picked up at the OLPS garage sale titled "My Monastery is a Minivan" by Denise Roy. The title just caught my eye and I'm sure glad it did! It is a compilation of 35 short stories from the author's life as a mother.

I read a story on my lunch break tonight at work and had tears in my eyes because it was like I was reading a story I could have wrote! The author wrote of arguing with her pre-school age daughter over getting dressed that morning to the point that she was angry with her daughter and her daughter was in tears. Then, as they were driving to school, she looked in her rear view mirror at a sleeping angel with a tear-streaked face and thought to herself how she was supposed to be her daughter's anchor and support and that she had let her down.

This story made me feel normal. So maybe I didn't need the medication all along; maybe I just needed to read this story and realize that no one is perfect, but God chose me as the perfect mother to my two little girls.